Why I dont want to go to my in-laws place in near future

 I am a girl from Kolkata, yes a 40 year old girl. I still call myself girl because I feel like so. Anyway I got married to a Punjabi boy, who is younger to me. We did hit it off well, but I think we lost ourselves in marriage circus. I am not meant to be a typical bahoo. That was never in my blood. Anyways we got married in 2023, Feb. We were supposed to be in Bangalore after marriage that didnt happen. So eventually I came back to Kolkata and my husband is cointinuing his work from Ludhiana. It was going Ok, I used to visit twice in a year for one month each time. Everything is ok. They treat me well. I can vouch on my father in law . He thinks me as I am his own daughter. My mom in law also pretents that , but I doubt or npot , not sure . May be if she would have had a daughter . She will be like this with her as well. She doesnt treat me wrong, but she has lot of expectation from me. Sometime she fights with her son over me. whenever they have intimate fights they speak in fast punjabi, which I dont understand. That time I really feel like an outsider. She wants me to be mini model in home, but I am not that kind of person. I am very easy going in cozy or comfortable nighty, which they dont approve but I dont care.

She has not any understanding about the pressure of my job...sometimes shge has feeling like I am living in ahotel, just visitiung ground floor foir my lunch dinner and breakfast. She is not voval with me about it me but with her son. Everytime whenever I am there she will fight with her son oiver silly things about me.

Everytime I feel so bad that I promise myself , that woint come back hgere. But being an optimistic person, every time I overlooked my trouble but the good things. And ended up visting nbere and facing same trouble. last to last timje Just before one dasy before my comiung back to Kolkata, I and she had some issue with me bringing some evening sdnacks at home, which I ogffered to her buit she rrefusedf to accept instead she told to have it alone. Shaffy also came backj late and I was bit agitated. that was very bad situation. ANyways every time whenever shaffy is coming to airport for me, hse used toi come with her son. that time she didnt come. but in between our way back to airport sahffy , and we went back to home toget the car papersw, and she hops into car.

last time when she broke her hand in some accident, that time also she made so mnany scenes.